i should be going to bed right around now but i have some things i need to get out…
had a store meeting tonight. 941 knows whats up! i love my job, the women i work with, and company i work for. LOFT has been there for me for well over a year now and every day i learn something new. my job isn’t just a job… it’s a place to express myself, share ideas, and grow as a woman.
school has been put on a back burner but now i’m going to hit it full force.
tomorrow i WILL complete the first draft of my resume and it WILL be submitted to ANN Inc by the end of this week.
had an amazing workout today. my new workout shoes are AMAZING and my shin splits aren’t as bad anymore… if anything they’re nonexistent. i love running and i am finally starting to get back into it. i’m no where near the 4 to 5 miles a day run like i used to be but i’ll be there soon.
as far as my love life goes… my dry spell after dating John and that one horrible date with Alex (see “virgin”) has ended. when it rains, it pours. most interestingly is that nemo is practically doing backflips to hang out with me… i like it when i make them grovel. pathetic men. MUAHAHAHAH!
to be honest, i have something on my mind more important than sex right now (although i will say that my current boy toy is amazing) and that’s my future. what ive started to realize is that when i focus on what’s to come, my present has to keep up. i can be a competitive person when it comes down to something that i really want and i challenge myself with the goal of being successful (in my own concept).
there’s a quote that i love that says “if your goals don’t scare you, they’re not big enough.” and honest to god, i’m frightened of the future almost to the point where i sometimes think about what it would be like to take the easy route. but that shitty thought goes away because i’m hungry. i need change and i am my own catalyst and that’s all i’ll ever be. all that i can give to myself is the moxie to push harder and go further than i’ve ever gone before. i can give myself opportunities that no one else can and i can take them.
life, like dating men, is like a ladder. always elevate yourself because to keep climbing is intimidating but not as difficult as hitting the ground.