“Don’t give up …

“Don’t give up what you want most for what you want now.”


Misfits concert

Misfits played at the observatory in Santa Ana a couple of Sundays ago. Went with a couple girlfriends of mine. Different crowd than the ones from shows that i typically frequent… What i mean to say is that the misfits crowd is definitely not mainstream. That being said, the sense of community that i felt among the fans was genuine! People were so friendly even though they looked a little intimidating to me at first. Funny how things work out like that some times… Best part of the night was dancing with my girls… And arlene suddenly growing a pair and suggest we go down into the pit. (A mosh pit… Full of men punching and kicking the air all while moving in a circle, like water going down a drain.) Jess and i, clearly not in the right state of mind, whole heartedly agree!!! We head into the pit, holding each others hands like the girly girls that we are, and soon Jess gets shoved into the pit! Im trying to hang out and we have a titantic moment and i lose her!!! Arlene and i freak but decide to wait. Jess comes out of no where 20 seconds later, grabs up, and we bolt up the stairs out of the pit… We have a laughing fit for at least 5 minutes! Way too funny :)



wut da hail

Sour diesel train wreck
Smokin on the baddest
roll up skills get mad respect
Faded blown
Shots of whiskey getting thrown
Party till the breakof dawn
No twilight shit
Just hit that shit
Then pass that shit
This shits the shit
Slap a bitch
Scratch that itch
Hardcore dancing for the hellof it

Lol random flowsssss. Good morning?

ah… yes…

today’s my first day off since last sunday… it feels nice to have the entire day to take care of things that i’ve been putting off. like sleeping in, make-up shopping–i may even get a massage.

i have three papers due next week and an exam. i have one paper done and i’m about to start on another. should be quick… once that’s done i have the rest of the evening and tomorrow to work on my last paper and study.

i saw my cousin last night. we went out for dinner and had much needed bonding time. i’m only 6 months older than her, so it’s really nice to have family that i’m close with. we have different personalities but we get along really well. i’m happy to have reconnected with her over the summer.

i’m feeling a little apathetic towards my friends. i know that sounds horrible to say… but i have so much going on and our interests are pretty polar. it’s hard to intern, work, and be a full time student… and when i have friends who only have to devote their time to school or only have to devote their time to work, scheduling becomes a huge problem. as does priorities. i’ve noticed that i’ve just been unable to hang out with them so much due to other things going on that it’s become the norm. so much so that they now assume that i have other plans. oh well, it is what it is. i do have other plans but it just makes me sad to see my friends go out and have fun without me :/ i read that that’s a byproduct of social networking sites–the fear of missing out is legitimate. what happens is that people go on sites like Facebook or Twitter, witness others having “so much fun”, and question themselves as to why they’re stuck at home on their computer? kinda feeling like that right now… 

ew. how depressing. lol

anyways, todays a beautiful day. it’s cold and sunny. i love it :)

have to do the dishes… make breakfast… write paper… take a shower… get ready… go make-up shopping (yay!)… lunch?… work out?… start on last paper…  then who knows what time it’ll be and how i’ll feel.

i almost planned to take shower before my paper… but i’d figure that i’d use hygiene as a motivation to complete the paper. lol. 


voxhaul broadcast – turn the knife

saw this band live on tuesday night at The Federal Bar in NoHo…. AMAZING. so much better live, which is hard to say because the ep and album i have are simply amazing… check out their songs “loose chains” (kind of acid, bluesy rock–really makes you wanna dance and they got super into this song live), “leaving on the 5th” (chillout indie), and “lost control” (happy indie). this song, “turn the knife”, is their most popular song and they opened with it. definitely not their strongest song and it’s great because they have a pretty diverse range of stuff that they play, definitely not as diverse as bands like gotye though, whose songs ALL sound like they come from a completely different artist. but yeah, go ahead, give them a listen. :)

they headlined that night and the band that played before them was gliss…. front woman who played guitar/bass…. a guitarist. and a percussionist who stood and sang. trippy indie… really good beats but hard to understand her lyrics. reminded me a bit of Phantogram (which is a great compliment seeing as how that’s one of my top all time favorite bands.)

this weekend i’m hoping to see minus the bear or the misfits. not sure. happy sunday!

passive aggression…

what the fuck is up with that shit? like honestly… it’s confusing as fuck!!!!! one minute you’re “cool” and the next your panties are all twisted. talk about mixed messages…

i’ll be honest. i’m guilty of being passive aggressive… but i work REALLY hard and make a conscious effort to try to communicate my emotions… instead of letting them build until they burst.

last night on halloween i invited a guy to come meet my friends and i at a bar in hollywood. he happily agreed and i kinda made my friends lag a bit so he could catch up to us……. had a fun night, left the bar, hit a party, grabbed some late night pho… and when push came to shove, my friend decided she did not want him to come into apartment. which i have no problem with, i totally understand and i’m the type of friend who puts my friends BEFORE any guy i’m starting to date. turns out… this guy gets totally pissed and i tried to ease him into the idea that we were parting ways… with verbal cues such as “are you okay to drive home right now?”…. he storms off… we all go inside… minutes later i get a text from him saying “thanks for wasting my time” and another text saying “i knew it was a bad idea to go out with you and your friends”…. followed by a call. all of which i do not answer or reply to because like DUH. i don’t really have to put up with anyones bull shit. the following day, today, he texts me followed by a phone call to apologize… he wants to take me out on a more of a one on one type of scene…. but after all his passive aggression I CANT EVEN DEAL. like honestly……… grow up. stick with one emotion cause i really don’t have the time in my life to try to keep up with your mood swings.